These photos are from this past Saturday. I had an afternoon to myself and I decided to throw my camera and a beach towel in a bag and hopped in the car for a trip to Sachuest Beach in Middletown, RI. I have been here numerous times before because of the sandy beach. The beaches in my immediate vicinity are rocky and this one is perfect for me because it is sandy and is bordered on one side by little cliffs. I climbed to the top of one smaller cliff and just sat there for a while thinking about where life had taken me. I realized that when I'm asked about my move and my thoughts on the whole situation, I really can't complain. Yes, I do owe a lot of money in student loans. Yes, a lot of money was spent on the physical relocation. Yes, I've hurt people. Yes, I've sacrificed the ability to attend birthdays, weddings (notably my best friend's wedding that I was supposed to be in), anniversaries, holidays, etc. but I think I've pinpointed why I can do all of that and still say that I'm happy.
I live my life with a mindset that allows me to carry on without disappointments. I think these thoughts stemmed from seeing my dad handle situations and relationships but I won't go there.
I do create dreams, goals, ambitions but one thing I try not to create is expectations. You must think this is weird. In any situation, I have to allow myself to be open to what naturally unfolds. If I come in with an open mind, then I don't have preconceived notions or expectations and therefore, anything that comes is a pleasant surprise. If it's a good experience then I mark it down as a positive, welcome surprise. If it's a sour experience then it doesn't hurt me. I didn't expect anything in the first place.
I could go on and on explaining this but that's all I really wanted to share for now.
I was sitting watching the waves and thinking about how much I've loved my move and everything that I've encountered in the past two years. I know I have no complaints because I don't allow myself to be disappointed. The good things were great and the bad things didn't disappoint me because I didn't expect them to make me happy anyways. 'Spose that's how I'll wrap this all up.
I hope your weekend was great and here's to wishing all of you guys happiness, smiles, and sunshine...yes, lots o' sunshine because I've been through four months of pure, raw winter.